I feel the bones of my sanity
drying. My life used to stand with
a straight spine, to make
sense. Now if I so much as
look at life – at sense – or
even think about it, it disintegrates between
my fingers like a desiccated clump of
sand to the bottom of an
hourglass from which
nothing, no minute, no grain, [...]
Archive for July, 2009
I feel the bones of my sanity
Posted in -all posts-, abuse & depression, tagged borderline personality disorder, genius, going crazy, insanity, intelligence, madness, mental illness, poetry, poets, psychology, psychotherapy, reason, sanity, schizophrenia, tragedy on July 27, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Blasphemy against the devil II
Posted in -all posts-, love & relationships, tagged blasphemy, erotic, erotic poem, erotic poetry, Love, lovers, Passion, religion, sex, sexuality, sin on July 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I cannot see why Heaven should not have
a man who loves so well.
But if his own creator should not have him,
Be certain that I will.
cummings: why must itself up every of a park
Posted in -all posts-, politics & society, tagged anti-war, antiwar, Christian love, cummings, e. e. cummings, famous poetry, famous poets, heroes, peace, poet, poetry, poets, politics, protest, protest poem, violence, war, war poem, war poetry on July 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
why must itself up every of a park
anus stick some quote statue unquote to
prove that a hero equals any jerk
who was afraid to dare to answer “no”?
quote citizens unquote might otherwise
forget(to err is human;to forgive
divine)that if the quote state unquote says
“kill” killing is an act of christian love.
“Nothing” in 1944 AD
“can stand against the argument [...]
cummings: i thank You God for most this amazing
Posted in -all posts-, religion & spirituality, tagged cummings, e. e. cummings, famous poets, God, miracles, nature, nature poem, nature poetry, One God, poetry, poets, religion, spirits, spirituality on July 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun’s birthday;this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings:and of the gay
great [...]
Cracked-Up Sidewalk
Posted in -all posts-, inspirational, tagged abuse, advice, anxiety, career, career advice, college, college students, depression, education, failure, inspirational, learning, Life, mental illness, mother, mothers, motivational, parenting, parents, psychological abuse, psychology, psychotherapy, success, Thoughts, toxic parents, verbal abuse on July 25, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Don’t step on a crack, or you’ll break your mother’s back.
I believe my path has an unusually cracked-up surface. Paralyzed under the pressure of dodging endless spiderweb cracks that even my tiny Cinderella feet cannot dodge, I have jumped into the arms of mother- and father-figures and insisted they carry me. As a [...]
Disclaimer for blasphemy against the devil
Posted in -all posts-, art & writing, tagged blasphemy, disclaimer, Humor, poems, poetry, poets, quotes, random, random thoughts, Thoughts, treason on July 22, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Perhaps I should prepare to be cut down
For my blasphemous words.
But I never said that I condoned these thoughts;
I merely thought them.
Blasphemy against the devil I
Posted in -all posts-, religion & spirituality, tagged afterlife, angels, blasphemy, Christ, Christianity, devil, Faith, God, Love, love poem, poem, poetry, poets, predestination, religion, religious poetry, Satan, sin, spirituality on July 18, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
You talk as if the devil gave us life,
And Christ endured the fall.
Your “Heaven” only takes predestined men;
At least Hell wants us all.
The one who carves wood figures for his fire,
Well, he might be a lord.
But surely he looks up to someone higher:
His maker, who adored.
Perhaps the angels catch us from below,
While devils stay above.
What [...]
Assuming the Worst
Posted in -all posts-, abuse & depression, tagged assuming the worst, depression, future, idealism, idealists, psychology, psychotherapy, realism, realists, relationships, therapy, toxic personalities, wet blanket on July 8, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve inherited from my mother a tendency to assume, just because something horrible could happen, it will happen. Mom’s term for assuming the worst was “being realistic”. I often heard her scolding cousins and family friends who were enjoying thoughts of love and a positive future, “You are living in a fantasy world!” [...]
Inner Parent
Posted in -all posts-, healing, tagged baby, depression, inner parent, inspirational, intimacy, Love, mental illness, parents, psychotherapy, recovery, self-actualization, self-sufficiency, therapy on July 6, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Painting by Stephen B. Whately
My unconscious is giving me clues. Last night, I dreamed a woman was massaging my back, telling me how much I hurt, and rubbing away my pain. I felt a tremendous calm that I hadn’t felt since…well, since being held as a baby. I think the woman in [...]
The Folly of Punishing
Posted in -all posts-, politics & society, tagged anger, capital punishment, crime, dark poem, dark poetry, death penalty, ethics, Freedom, futility, libertarian, morality, murder, politics, punishment, rape, revenge, reverse discrimination, slavery, social commentary, Thoughts, vengeance, war, war criminal on July 13, 2009 | 1 Comment »
By killing all the killers,
We tried to make it right.
But no one who was murdered has
Come back to life tonight.
By taxing all the masters’ kin,
We tried to make it right.
But no slaves of past centuries
Are walking free tonight.
By raping all the rapists,
We tried to make it right.
But no one who remembers shame
Forgets that night tonight.
By [...]
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